Chandelier by Sia

Commenting on her own battle with alcoholism, Sia’s Chandelier resonates with me because it accurately captures the mood of my addiction right before it got to be too much to handle. Might be triggery to some. Listen at your own discretion. Lyrics below.

Party girls don’t get hurt
Can’t feel anything, when will I learn
I push it down, push it down

I’m the one “for a good time call”
Phone’s blowin’ up, ringin’ my doorbell
I feel the love, feel the love

1, 2, 3 1, 2, 3 drink
1, 2, 3 1, 2, 3 drink
1, 2, 3 1, 2, 3 drink

Throw ’em back, till I lose count

I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier
I’m gonna live like tomorrow doesn’t exist
Like it doesn’t exist
I’m gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry
I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier

And I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ’cause I’m just holding on for tonight
Help me, I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ’cause I’m just holding on for tonight
On for tonight

Sun is up, I’m a mess
Gotta get out now, gotta run from this
Here comes the shame, here comes the shame

1, 2, 3 1, 2, 3 drink
1, 2, 3 1, 2, 3 drink
1, 2, 3 1, 2, 3 drink

Throw ’em back till I lose count

I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier
I’m gonna live like tomorrow doesn’t exist
Like it doesn’t exist
I’m gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry
I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier

And I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ’cause I’m just holding on for tonight
Help me, I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ’cause I’m just holding on for tonight
On for tonight
On for tonight
‘Cause I’m just holding on for tonight
Oh I’m just holding on for tonight
On for tonight
On for tonight
‘Cause I’m just holding on for tonight
‘Cause I’m just holding on for tonight
Oh I’m just holding on for tonight
On for tonight
On for tonight

15 comments

  1. I remember seeing her on Ellen. I didn’t know the words though so thanks for posting it. Today is day 1 for me again and I am going to listen to this song a few times today.

    1. For me and people who struggle with alcoholism this song is definitely a trigger because it is a kind of song that can stick in your head.. There is definitely suicide tendency ‘I’m gonna swing on a chandelier’, ‘I’m gonna live like tomorrow doesn’t exit’.. This song will have a huge impact with some who has a mental illness who are fragile and usually someone with a drinking problem has a mental illness depression, anxiety and mood disorders.. How I know this because I am bipolar and alcoholic this song to me is a trigger however I’m strong and won’t fall.. But when I hear this song I taste alcohol my memories of those drunkard nights.. Suicide thoughts I have had in the past.. I just giving you picture of someone listening to this song or even watching that video of maddie dancing around psychotic and manic behaviour is a real damage.. I can tell you in mental health units the patients sit down and watch music on Saturday and Sunday mornings.. Music helps mental health patients through there time of darkness I been there.. I would not like to be there when this song would come on it would not be a good sight triggering all those patients into a psychotic or manic episodes because the song and images of the video is in their heads.. Just saying..

      1. Also. Did you not at all read what I said before the video where I told people it might be triggery and to listen at their own discretion? This blog is about my recovery and what resonates with me. Sorry if it offended.

      2. No not at all, you have not offend me.. Just this song won’t get out of my head so it’s been a trigger and temptation.. My comment is nothing to you at all.. Just simply saying my concerns.. I don’t mean to offend you, just thinking of the ones that are not strong like you and me.. I have done a post on my blog about this song about my concerns.. It’s not out of hate of Sia..

      3. Sorry for the overreaction. I’ve had a few really nasty flaming comments in the past few days which kind of shook me so I guess I’m on edge. My apologies.

      4. That is ok, I’m not having ago but just concern with the effect it’s having on me, I am wondering how fragile people are doing..

  2. Greetings from the ATL! I just started reading your blog this week. I think I’m almost thru every entry. I enjoy your writing, I admire all you bloggers and glad you’re here! I’m drink-free (I don’t like using “sober” that much) but alcohol-free just over two years. WOOP WOOP! Anyhoo on here to ask why this song is trigger-y? I see how songs like Kesha’s Tick Tock or party songs can be but this one is more anti-party/the mental effects of using/boozing/drugging, etc. When you have a sec let me know! And thanks for posting – I’ve never heard the song nor did I know Maddie had done this – I used to watch Dance Moms but stopped a season or two ago – it’s just too dysfunctional – Abby what a B! haha she sure did teach Maddie though! And thanks for the blog – I admire you bloggers – keeping us “sober freaks” entertained!! Let’s rock this weekend (sober) girl 🙂 :)!

    1. Hi! Well, to me it ISN’T triggery at all. I just posted it as possibly being a trigger for others. I think because the song is written from the perspective of being in the midst of the disease. I think for some people, it might take them to a place mentally that they aren’t prepared to go. I can’t speak for others who do find this song to be a trigger. For me, it offers me catharsis and feeling of crying it out and saying, “Yeah. That was me. Not now I’m okay.”

      1. Thanks for the response! I see how Darleen says it could be b/c of the chandelier part. I’d never think of hanging by a chandelier as a suicide reference – I would think it’s how we were when drunk – party time/going crazy/letting loose. And of course we never thought of tomorrow b/c we were having fun – never worrying about the morning after/work/obligations, etc. Suicide is an interesting – and sad – take on it. Anyhoo thanks again for writing your blog – I will be reading!!

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