Fellow WordPress blogger I don’t want to exist. I want to live. has very kindly nominated me for a Liebster Award. Thank you so much for the lovely gesture! Everyone be sure to check out Lauren’s blog. Obviously mental health issues and recovery go hand in hand so you may find it to be totally relevant to your journey.

From what I can tell, The Liebster Award is a peer based award meant to recognize excellence in blogging and an appreciation for your nominee’s writing and content. Liebster is a German word meaning “beloved”, sweetest” or “dearest.” It’s really fucking awesome to hear from someone else that they find your words relevant and important to their daily lives and journeys. I know I’ve said this countless times, but I feel so supported and not alone here. You all keep me sober so you are doing me a huge service by being here, reading my blog, and commenting. And I love that you get something out of the exchange as well.

As part of this process, I am to nominate a selection of blogs myself. It was very hard to choose because I read so many. I should also mention that none of these nominated bloggers are required or expected to participate if they’d rather not. That being said, I nominate:

  • Inside the Alcoholic Brain: I’m a big nerd and the science behind my addiction is fascinating to me. I also think that understanding what is truly going on is critical if we are to become effective recovery advocates. Breaking down the stigma of alcoholism and addiction starts with educating others about what addiction really is. And this blog is extremely informative and helpful in that regard.
  • Klen + Sobr: While you won’t find much on the blog itself, it is a portal to Chris’ main recovery website Tons of resources there and links to other blogs. I’m excited to see where this project leads and encourage you all to check it out!
  • Sober Learning: She was one of the very first people to reach out to me on my blog and has been around ever since. A wealth of wisdom and insight, I always check in to see how her journey is going and value her honesty and how she consistently updates. It’s helpful for me to be able to track someone else’s trajectory and witness how they deal with the same issues that I am dealing with.
  • Sober Journalist: While her posting has decreased significantly, this is still a blog that I hold close because it is one of the first that I read when I was trying to find the willingness to surrender. And I still forward this blog to newly sober individuals and encourage them to read from the beginning. It’s comforting, inspiring, and extremely helpful.
  • Mished-Up: Just an all around awesome woman with very well-written posts. I only wish she would post more often! *hint hint*
  • Mrs. D Is Going Without: Lotta needs no help with web traffic to her blog BUT I have to mention her here because she has been so helpful in my recovery. Her blog is wonderful and this is another to read from the beginning. It will take you some time because it spans years. And please check out her brand new book and recovery website:
  • UnPickled: Again, Jean needs no help getting people over to her blog so I mention her purely because of how appreciative I am in the role her words played in my recovery. I fell in love with this Bubble Hour host and classy Canadian recovery superstar for a number of different reasons but she really got my attention when I learned that she matches her travel mugs to her outfits. You probably already know this blog but just in case….
  • ByeByeBeer: Heartfelt, genuine, inspiring, and relatable. A great blog. Period.

If you wish to accept this award, the following guidelines are below. There is no pressure to accept the award.

The steps for The Liebster Award are as follows:
1. Thank the person who nominated you for the award!
2. Add The Liebster Award logo to your post and blog.
3. Answer 10 questions provided to you by the person who nominated you.
4. Provide 10 questions of your own for your nominees to answer.
5. Nominate 7 bloggers for the award and notify them.

Now, I’ve been tasked to answer 10 questions! If you accept this award, I’m going the lazy route here and encouraging you to use the same questions that were asked of me.

These are my ten questions:

1) Why did you decide to blog?

I’m a writer! I write about everything. Mainly, I’m a playwright so I think in very theatrical ways. Telling stories about my recovery and spicing it up with humor is very therapeutic to me. Getting ideas and thoughts outside of my brain is so important. If I don’t do it, I feel FULL. Clogged. Filled up. Stifled. Unable to breathe. It’s hard to describe. But blogging has become somewhat of a necessity to me and I’d most likely be doing it even if no one was reading or commenting because it has become that critical to my recovery process.

 2) If you had to live in another time period which period would you chose?

This question is difficult. As a gay man, I am reluctant to choose a time period in the past. The past 40 years have brought a lot of change. Prior to that we had to hide and live our lives in secret. So the past doesn’t appeal to me. I like now. And while things aren’t perfect, it’s inspiring to live in a time where I’m able to witness the marriage equality dominoes falling right before my eyes. State by state and soon the entire country. I suppose the future COULD be interesting to live in. But that’s the thing: Who knows?! It could be terrifying. So today is fine by me. I’ll stay right here.

3) Which person has had the greatest impact on your life?

Oprah. And my mother.

4) Where do you feel most at home?

My house. I also feel really at home at Target. I like walking around with friends and picking up stupid shit like a dish towel and saying how cute it is and that the price is so reasonable. I like putting things in my cart and then putting them back. I also feel really at home at any buffet.

5) Which book do you keep returning to?

I’m a read-it-once kind of guy. There are so many things to read out there that I find it to be a waste of time to read something all over again. I’m the same way with movies. I don’t buy DVDs because they will just sit there.

6) Which of your culinary creations never fails to impress?

I make a really amazing chicken and dumpling soup. It involves opening cans of Pilsbury biscuits which is terrifying. But worth it.

7) What object holds a special significance for you?

My mother gave me her class ring when I graduated from high school. It sits on my desk in a little cheesy ceramic container that says BEST FRIENDS on it. It barely fits on my pinky. It’s something I will treasure forever.

8) If you weren’t blogging what would you do with that time?

I’d probably be drinking. Which I don’t do anymore. So I better keep blogging. I’d also probably be spending more time writing other things. A big challenge that I can foresee in the near future is finding the time to stay current with this blog and also work on my other endeavors. But I really must get back to work on my plays. Somehow.

9) What is your favourite poem?

I have no idea. I don’t have one? I like that Dr. Seuss guy. In all seriousness, I’ve never been a big reader of poetry. I can appreciate it when I do read it. I just don’t seek it out. No idea why.

10) Which character from a film, TV programme, play or novel do you wish you were more like?

I wish I were more like Oprah. And by more like Oprah, I mean that I wish I had all of the money so I could not work and just write and help other people and hang out with Gayle. Also, I wish I were more like my mother: Selfless, generous, regal, and gorgeous.


  1. every time I read your blog I love you even more. I can’t handle it. and I would really like some chicken and dumpling soup now. 💚

  2. Bravo John! I contacted you earlier this week when I was on Day 3 and now I’m feeling strong on Day 6. I’m actually doing this and I honestly don’t want to drink today. Thank you for helping me via your blog. You are amazing! xo

    This poem struck a chord with me and may with others here. I reread it frequently:

    The Laughing Heart by Charles Bukowski

    your life is your life
    don’t let it be clubbed into dank submission.
    be on the watch.
    there are ways out.
    there is light somewhere.
    it may not be much light but
    it beats the darkness.
    be on the watch.
    the gods will offer you chances.
    know them.
    take them.
    you can’t beat death but
    you can beat death in life, sometimes.
    and the more often you learn to do it,
    the more light there will be.
    your life is your life.
    know it while you have it.
    you are marvelous
    the gods wait to delight
    in you.

  3. Well none more deserving than you Johnny!! Thanks for always being there for us…we need you and really, there’s nothing more fun than laughing at our own mistakes in life! It makes the journey sooo much easier 🙂

  4. Thank you so much for introducing me to some wonderful blogs. I can’t believe I didn’t know about ‘Inside the Alcoholic Brain’. It’s amazing!
    I’m pretty sure you are channeling a bit of Oprah when you blog. Maybe not the money part but you are definitely helping people.

  5. Wow. Was feeling guilty about not stopping by for a minute so I swing by to see what’s been doing with you and there’s K+S/SRN getting a very kind mention.

    I’m extraordinarily honored to be mentioned in the same breath as the others. And by 6YH no less. One of the most clever, open, welcoming sobriety bloggers around. It is very much appreciated.

  6. Ditto to all of the above – I find your blogs really have a powerful effect.. i rather liked that poem too that’s been posted!

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